It’s been 27 days since this started, and I am 7 days into the first round of chemo. Yesterday was a pretty OK day, and I spent it acting as normal as I know how. Today has been pretty OK as well. I think I am having the common experience of early chemo not being as rough as it gets later on, and the Oxaliplatin being rougher on me than the pills. I don’t feel 100% exactly, but I am functional and can do stuff. I mostly stay isolated, but you might see me walking around within a few blocks of my house.
Mentally and emotionally I feel good.
I’m still working, so a lot of my weekdays are spent doing work stuff, which you’d think would be the last thing I would want in this situation but it’s a good distraction and I love my colleagues more than probably makes sense if you’re not in my exact situation. It’s something I kinda look forward to. I mean, there are meetings, and then there are meetings, if you know what I am saying, but overall it’s been good for me to solve problems I can solve, while facing The Problem I can’t solve on my own.
The Problem being so huge and everchanging is one of the worst parts of it. No way to get a grip on it by myself, and so I accept that I do my part with nutrition and rest and finding the right tools, while I also recruiting the best team I can to help me. Medical professionals, but also all my friends. I am filled to the brim with courage because of you. I find joy in the mundane. I get to laugh with Ellie every single day. When I am annoyed or angry or scared it has been fairly easy to accept the experience and move through it so far. I don’t know that I would be capable of that without the massive support I keep receiving from everyone. The food and little (and big, to me) presents and messages and words of encouragement are out of this world. I would like to ask that folks email me their mailing address to ttamaton <a space here as though that will fool bots remove> @gmail.com if they’re comfortable doing so, so I can get back on my pen-pal bullshit.
I guess that’s it for now. I am going to go drink ounces 41-61 of water so far today and eat some fruit. It’s a real wild lifestyle.
Happy Tuesday!